Experience:300µg - Don't worry, because you're everyone!
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Trip Reports - AL-LAD

  • Date:December 31st 2014/January 1st 2015
  • Time of Dosage:Approx. 10 - 10:30 PM
  • Weight:Approx. 140lbs
  • Dose:2 Tabs [150µg each] of AL-LAD
  • Mind-frame/Set:Curious, Excited, Tired [Over a day and a half without sleep]
  • Environment/Setting:At a friend's very old & supposedly haunted house in the middle of town, Night, Alone with one of my closest friends, No TV, Hardly any music throughout the trip.
  • Goal:To try it out before taking a 600µg dose later on in the month, Possibly acquire a spiritual insight.
  • Experience: None, besides smoking Cannabis on & off for 3 years if that counts.

Content

Initial Dosage:

I stick the tabs on my gum like my fellow psychonaut instructs me to. I leave the tabs there for about half an hour before I chew & swallow them.

Approx. An hr after initial dosage:

I'm feeling slightly different, then my friend says something & I automatically start bursting out in uncontrollable laughter. They inform me that this is normal as I continue in my hysteria. I also felt my throat become fairly flemmy around this sort of time, my friend says they also find they get like this on AL-LAD.


Approx. Half an hour later:

I'm feeling an intense body high. Feeling as if I'm having an orgasm, but all over my body, along with feeling this sort of buzzing energy, hard to describe. I see my first visual as I'm showing my friend the contents of “The Psychedelic Explorer's Guide” by James Fadiman, it's in between the lines & kind of looks like a triangle but curvy, There's probably a name for it but it escapes me at this time, I shall update if I figure it out.


Approx. Half an hour later:

I'm lying on the bed, along with my friend & we can see the ceiling in motion, which gives me great pleasure to look at. I have this state of mind where I look at our species as if it were unfamiliar, humans just seem strange, it's very odd, hard to describe. Kind of looking at our species like “how the hell did that happen?!”. These lost beings are all alone, walking around not knowing that they're true divine beings, it saddens me. I want to go out and share how I'm feeling with everyone, but I'm afraid I will get shot by the police for being mistaken as a lunatic. I see Illuminati in a different way as well, almost like it's this sort of illusion that something or somebody had burdened upon our species, to stop us from learning something.

I have this very weird experience of deja vu, I keep saying the same sentence over & over again, along with my friend who I think is doing the same thing. I'm still very giggly at this point, I start taking off some of the layers I have on (which I have several of), saying something along the lines of “I'm removing this because it's not me, it's not who I am.” my friend asks me not to start taking my clothes off so I stop at the point where I'm left with only a t-shirt on & tracksuit bottoms. My friend instructs me to try & meditate, but I'm too giggly & easily distracted. I lie down next to the boiler in their room, laughing & smiling for a while.


Around 12:50 AM:

Note:From here on out I completely lose track of time.

I've been so engrossed in my experience that I forgot to count down for the new year with my friend. By now , geometric patterns have completely enveloped my vision, I see them on the walls, I see them on my friend, they're everywhere! We continue to converse for a while, then at some point, it gets really weird.

Now, the experience is jumbled. I'm not sure what order these experiences happen, but I will give it my best shot to remember the correct order.

I think I'm seeing the person who I have feelings for, & they find out how I'm feeling & instead of rejecting me as I fear is going to be the case, they say "I love you too!" & we start kissing and then our bodies start melting into each other. The pleasure & happiness I'm feeling is amazing! It's so beautiful! I feel so happy that I don't have to worry any more! By now I'm completely out of it &, according to my friend, completely unresponsive. So me and this person continue with our melt-sex for a while & then they don't want to because I'm not (a certain person), & now I go into this odd loop where I become different people who I know or (admire for e.g. Terrence Mckenna), & I feel like these people are also spectating me becoming them, speaking to, & talking about me, & each time it speeds up dramatically & is also slightly different. From going back to being me melting with that person, to being them melting into me, to eventually being someone I know who has alzheimers, I resist it at first, I don't like it one bit, I feel as if I'm shutting down & I can see rats, spiders, snakes & some other creepy creatures with evil red eyes from the other side of the room that are coming towards me. At first, I think I've turned into Sonic, & that I can jump out the window, run around the world a light speed & come back & then I'll be able to move on to a better experience, (which thinking about it sounds illogical because even if I could do that, in theory they wouldn't have gone anywhere as I would have been back in an instant giving them no time to even go anywhere), my friend fortunately stops me from doing this as I would have fallen & injured myself badly. At this point I see my friend, who instructs me to lie down, which helps me a lot. I now feel like I'm meant to leave this person I'd fallen in love with, so I could go deeper into my mind & face my fears along with the help of Terrence McKenna. I feel a giant dog sized spider crawl on top of my head, but instead of freaking out, I find it cuddly & warm. I feel as if I've been taken to the Amazon & I'm with these creatures again, but instead of them being scary, they're just minding their own business & I'm minding mine. Then I'm taken to this space where the loop continues, I go back to melt-sex, then I experience melt-sex as someone else with someone else. (A lot of the loop wasn't just to do with sex by the way, but I'm having trouble remembering the other parts at the moment. I'll add these parts if/when they return to my memory.) In the end these people tell me something like, "You don't need to worry about us doing things you don't want us to, because we are you", & I have this feeling of complete connection with everyone, I feel as if I am everyone.

It goes something along these lines. I find it difficult to remember anything else.


Around half 5 AM:

I awaken and find myself lying next to my friend who is on their phone. I see no visuals, other than an enhanced perception of the phone, it looks 3D, it's pretty awesome. My friend informs me that I had grabbed their light and snapped it, that they had to stop me from from burning myself on their candle & that I started saying a load of random stuff. I have no recollection of this, but I remember seeing a candle at some point during the trip. I apologise to them & we go to bed.

Effects analysis

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